Bismillah.

Dear 2015 Nisya, you are the best person on earth. there is diamond in you. find it. proof it. you are not wrong. this year will be the tough year ever. your will get married, finish your research study. keep reminds your self. this year, 2015, is not the simple year like before. stop mess with your study. later, in end of march, you will have a another family. don't stop dreaming, but keep acting. planning planning and planning then DOING. the future awaits.

remember, do not mess with 2015.
if not, you will regret more.

January - December 2015 - Fulfill the year with light, do not shut it.
in sha Allah.

kata - kata

Don't give up yet, your bright future await.

Bismillah.

Semangat yang hilang

sekejap tadi aku baca penulisan aku yg sebelum2 ni. ye, aku admit, mmg aku rindu nisya yang dahulu. g kelas. buat assignment. eh, mmg lah. aku tahu mende tu biasa lah. dah lepas kan?
kenapa la semangat aku hilang mcm tu je? aku pn tak paham. faktor umur ke? mcm mn nk buat aku kembali dgn benda yang aku betui2 suke buat? aku skrg dah master kot. - mmg aku kejar untuk master. masa mula2 masuk unimas dulu, mmg dah azam nk buat master. eh kemain. hahah! tapi kenapa mende tu semua hilang? aku tahu aku mula jadi mcm ni sejak final semester degree. aku tiba2 hilang minat nk buat semua mende. how could this be? aku dah dapat ape yang aku nak tp kenapa aku tak seronok? aku faham, hidup bukan untuk seronok. tapi at least aku enjoy and ade semangat untuk buat sesuatu. isk. kau dah kenapa nisya? i feel like no life. what has happened at me? menyesal aku masuk master ni. this year i will be 27 years old. dah nk kawen dah pon. but kawen is another thing. aku skrg dah mcm asik pk nk baby. nk beli rumah. hidup nak bekeluarga. google2 harga rumah. ya Allah. impian nk study overseas tu makin terkubur dah. impian nk jd researcher pn same. dah tak de. mngkin tajuk research aku tak menyeronokkan kot? hmm..

Happy New Year!

It's 2015 already. i have not write anything for a long time. masya Allah.

Achievement? you guys asking for what I've DONE at 2014?

Definitely NOTHING!

what I can remember for now is vacation to Taipei. that all.

that was because i am accompany my mum to her meeting at Taipei.

that it!

again, I am feel so damn loser gile bab!
still hating my research, do you think should I keep moving with my current study?
I never fell this hatred. How I am supposed to live?

cari kerja tak jumpa2. nak berhenti belajar my parents tak bagi.
what the heck?

All I wish is 2015 please be nice for me.
I had left 2014 with the dumbest thing ever.

Should I quit my study? They keep saying, do not giving up.
but the thing is, I am no longer strong like before.
I think I should go through the mix mode course. I am not able to do my research. I still need guide. I am not able to do all the thing/ decision by my own.

sadly I felt.

No one could understand my situation now.

loser.

Diamond word

"I'm not a bright student, but I always keen to learn new things"

Addicted

Bidang research ni sgt meluas. eeerrr.. actually i have a lot of thing to story. but i will start with my favorite part of my life. 10 August 2014 was my favorite date in my life, so far. I have been proposed by my hunny bumby boyfriend. of should i call him now pre-fiance. kekekke.. Alhamdulilah, everything goes smoothly. Our relationship are accepted by our parent. Now, we are in level one. there is a lot of level waiting. probably in Nov or Jan i will do my official kenduri for my engagement ceremony. ok. that another part of my life. next is my career. Alhamdulilah, so far i get clear what my research is about. yurp, before this, my research plan has become so worst. not i mean worst. i feel hanging. now i have to back on track, plan my research wisely. if not, i bet i can't finish my research on time just because of my laziness habit. next, i have a dream/plan to doing research attachment overseas. perhaps Australia. but, my cousin give suggestion to me to go to Netherlands! facepalm* currently, im still searching for any Univ which suitable on my research. i'm also have dream/plan to make my own conference in overseas! so far, im already ask a person who has once doing her conference in Korea. it's not too hard unless u r lazy to search an opportunity. May Allah bless my doa. amin.

There is a lot of changing in life. positive changing. and i hope i will last forever. yeah, for sure Allah will give lots of trials, to make sure we are in good track. but no matter what, we as a him servant, have to deal with it. in sha Allah. thank you Allah.

hey nisya!

"When the last time I'm doing something NEW?"

i is forgot.