another day, just another day.

hari yang semakin membosankan. nak membaca sikit bukan main malas lagi. HAHA! selalu kene tegur gan supervisor, how long have u read? i need to change! kene cari tempat yg sesuai tuk reading memandangkan skrg musim panas melampau. huhu. i miss library, i miss cais. hmm..

kereta mimpi

or dream car. nowadays, i don't have any feeling to own any dream car since i don't even have one! like, seriously? but why? ye lah kan, sejak aku rasa kereta bukan lagi kehendak aku. sekadar memakai saga FLX silver aku yg acap kali rosak. huhu. ganas ke aku bawak? 2 tahun ok je kat Kuching. ok now aku nak salah kan sape? hahahah! well, tah lah. dah kata machine, surely lah rosak tu of cos will occur. hmm.. now i keep looking and searching at house. to have and own a dream house. dream house aku skrg terbahagi kepada dua. which satu utk aku duduk for a few, i mean ye lah lepas kahwin so sure nk stay kat any apartment. right? rumah skrg mahal. susah nk memenuhi keinginan sendiri. sekadar syukur je gan ape yg ade. then, perhaps if ade rezeki boleh lah move on to another bigger house, or land house. itu pon kalau aku ni gaji in sha Allah besar lah. am I right? nowdays, 26, aku dah mule rasa goyah. menangani tekanan hidup. nak tak nk kene tempuh juga. tak kan nk depends on parent? oh no no.. tak boleh tak boleh. mmg lah orang ckp perempuan ape ade hal? suami kan ade. but for me, i have my own dream career. to be an intelligent and successful women in researching area, in sha Allah. :) well, that it for now. 

take care, love.

Hot weather.

This HOT weather is killing me!

masya Allah..

nak study tak senang.

mood tunggang terlabik.

kahkahkah.

i love u so.

Is that?

I don't know, everytime i think about my future career, my study, all probs appear, i feel like so miserable. and i hate it. but, when i start thinking about get married, my heart turn into mellow, melt, happy, smile. haha! well, at least ade benda yang boleh cheer me up! even kadang2 stress pk about married. ye lah nk save money, nk kene tu ini. mungkin ade hikmah nye bile Nabi s.a.w berpesan,

“Berkahwinlah, sesungguhnya wanita itu akan mendatangkan kekayaan kepadamu dari harta benda.”

hmm, tu lah die. kekayaan yang dimaksudkan mungkin kebahagian dunia akhirat. kan?

smile face*

Delivery

hahaa.. ok malam ni tak-sangat-rare bile aku google barang hantaran. well it not actually barang hantaran yg aku google cuma aku google style hantaran yang aku nak. i mean, i just don't get any idea how to explain it. well, ni contoh yang aku rasa aku nak buat hantaran kat laki aku.. simple, running just a few color well in another word it's called monochrome color. ahaa.. yurp, using pastel color is more suitable for my hantaran.

ok, i took it from google image.

so as u can see above, warna tak byk lari la kan. still ade warna2 yang tak menyerabut kan kepala hotak aku. hahha! ok, now im begin to research more about weds stuff. weee.. can't wait to get married soon. alhamdulilah setakat ni no halangan from my and his parent. now focus nk kumpul duit je dulu. in sha Allah. doakan yang terbaik utk kami. 

love, love, love~

aih..

Aku dah mula bosan dok uma.

tak buat ape.

ape jadi kat yuran kau bayar MYR2,100 utk master of science kau nisya?

duit tu kalau tak buat ape2 dah boleh msuk TABUNG ASB kau tuk KAWEN kau tahu tak?

thing I regret.

:'(

Jedi word.

mende ni lah yg aku tgh praktik kan. 

sampaikan relationship aku skrg pon, aku cakap tak nk try.

just go on.

Alhamdulilah, semua berjalan lancar.

now, nak kene praktik kan on my study.

in sha Allah.

”if you want to see change, you must be the change you want to see”. - Mahatma Gandhi

Wish list updated

Dulu dulu dulu, wish list aku ini. eh? 

❒ buy an apartment

❒ get a dean list for my next semester

❒ continue study in abroad 

❒ be a great researcher!

❒ lose my weight to 48 kg!

❒ get a Mazda 3

❒ buy an iMac

❒ improve my english.

❒ get married at 30. eh, ni pun nk masuk jugak ke?

knp dah ilang dari blog? sebab aku rasa mcm tak layak dapat semua ni..
no no, mende penting mcm ni mn boleh hilang dari kotak pemikiran. haha.. 
now, i need to create the new one. or maybe just improve my wish list before? hahaha..

WISH LIST (UPDATED):

❒ finish my master in at least a year and half

❒ be a great researcher!

❒ buy an apartment/ house before 30

❒ further study in abroad

❒ work out on fat belly

❒ get a Mazda 3

❒ improve my english

❒ get married with Yzid and hv babies

yet, my mind still loading the idea. what i really want in my life.

to be continue...

this is love

nchazid

Oct31 and still counting

Alhamdulilah.

i think i'm already found a guy, who i can depends on.

who will never break my heart, who really always there for me when i really need him.

thank you Allah, thank you bb. 

for always believing me, for ACCEPT the way i am.

in my mind, i still think, he's the ONE. 

because 

u already know all my dark side and dirty secret, 

but still, u call me your love.

T.T

Mengidaman memalam

Oi! tekak aku tibe2 rasa nak minum teh tarik. APE HAL? ahhahahahhahha! 

image from google.com

hahhaha! aku dah kenapa?

tibe2 rindu zaman dl2 teh tarik mmg fav aku. 

aku pun tatahu bile aku stop minum teh tarik ni. mybe dah tak stay dalam keadaan zaman poli dl.

"jum weh lepak ali, subani etc"

dalam banyak2 memories kat dunia ni, zaman poli aku paling melekat habes. aku pn tatahu knp.

laaaahaiii.. zaman tu paling jahanam kot. hahaha! biasalah. menda jahanam ni kadang2 paling happening nk igt balik. hihihi.. zaman unimas aku rindu pon time lepak bengkel ID, studio ID, and Cais 24 hrs. tu sahaja.

yang lain, ZERO. bile baca balik ayat kat atas, skema betui tempat2 yg aku suke lepak kat unimas? hahahahha...

teroookkknye.. hmm.. 

i feel like i want to go to beach. release my mind. enjoy the environment.

tp tu lah, nk plan tu susah betui memandangkan aku duk gan family balik dah skrg, so nk kua uma tu mmg merisaukan mama aku. nampak tak bile dah matang, umo pon dah 26 time ni aku dah mule menjaga hati mama aku. eh, ni kalau umo early 20 ni, lantak aku lah nk g mana aku suke. hahhahahha!

matang dah nisya? sheriously? hahha.. jelirlidah*

dah sampai time aku focus kat future.

lupekan sekejap plan nk kawen umo around 30.

ni dah mcm bakal2 awal je.

aduh! cakap pasal kawen, masya Allah, ramai nye membe aku dah kawen?

umagggaihhh!!! tak senang dah hati ni. dulu aku tk pnh nk pk keseriousan berkahwin ni.

tapi memandangkan mcm ade jodoh je, Alhamdulilah. insha ALlah, subhanaAllah.

haha. ape benda tah lah..

maybe this is one of orang kata pendorong jugak lah kan. kalau tak pk mende2 ni semua, atas katil aku masih terbongkang. iye dok? hahhaha!

eh pjg plak aku pnye post.. kat tgh plak tu. haha! aduh..

p/s: baru pas daftar kat upm on 7 feb ritu. hey hey hey! im officially a student, again! being a master student by research was really tough. eleh, gaya mcm dah mule present bagai je. miahahhah! doakan yang terbaik. insha Allah. ade lah tu rezeki. >.>

nitey & Assalamualaikum

February, 11

oh. im feeling so tired. tak de tired sgt pon. mlm ni aku DELETE abes semua post yg tak de kaitan gan hidup aku. haha! i just realized, tak banyak menda aku post dalam blog aku ni dah. haha! aku tetap suke baca post aku time mule2 masuk unimas. lucu ba! sebab time tu semua post meroyan nak balik kl. then now i realized, Allah dah bagi peluang kembali ke KL np aku tak boleh nk buat betul2? jgn lah semangat aku hilang. hmm.. tu la die. tapi seriously, my life getting better because im currently surrounded by people who support me. Alhamdulilah. ape nak cerita mlm ni? i'm 26, and i'm truly scared of my future. bukan zaman aku sedang mencuba. now zaman aku dah perlu start my engine and enjoy my journey. my Allah, can i face it? dah abes dah 3 tahun suffer in unimas. actually not unimas bikin suffer. i mean study life as a student yg jaoh merantau mcm aku ni haaa.. haha! well, Alhamdulilah i think Allah already gv me a man who match with myself. so i no need to hide certain menda mcm dl. this is me. real me. i need to study hard. tp tu lah die. mslh die aku mls membaca. camno tu nk jd researcher berjaya kalau dah malas membaca. oh NO!!!! please jgn mls. but aku mls jugak. >.< i need to do this for my kids. hmm.. no in current mood nk menulis pjg2. sebab banyak cabaran yg ada perlu diselesaikan. 

cabaran: tajuk research yg masih tergantung, scholarship yang masih menunggu keputusan, allowance mcm mn pula?, daftar subject mcm mn?

ahhhhh! pening betui lah. its like aku sedang melarikan diri dari cabaran tu pasai i much prefer ignore all my research. tu lah mslh aku. feeling sleepy. 

tlg jgn hanyut, tlg jgn hanyut.

Allah, permudahkan lah urusan dunia akhirat aku. T.T feeling really empty and sad. 

eh? How time flies!

eh dah february, 10? makaihhh..

ok. ok. ok.

laju nye masa? >.<