Jujur

N.Y cinta
I love this movie so much! but, i hate the ending. aih? mcm tu je?
then dgn si johan yg like a pfffttthh! i hate him. ape lah.. nonsense.
but the best part, when Mia in NY. how she falling in love with Seth.
i love Seth, but he such a loser. but, in the end, he try to move on and change his faith after falling in love with Mia. lg seronok kalau die boleh tnjk Seth tu berjaya. he js fly from NY to Msia js to explain to mia about sarah. that's it? cinta sakan kau. haha. well, that probably the best part. try to change  ur self, for your love one. how lovely. kita bukan bercinta cuma hanya utk nafsu. tp kalau someone tu boleh buat kite berubah utk lebih baik, itu adalah yg terbaik sbnrnye.

i try this b4. to change my ex attitude. unfortunately, still he going down. so, the best thing is to let him go.

well, i love me. now and forever.
this movie makes me want to further my study in New York. no just NY, but i want to explore west side. in sha Allah. i will work hard to achieve my dream! :)

ini lah kehidupan

kehidupan yang aku mahukan? for real?

dah lah bahasa inggeris berterabur. dapat pula supervisor not from my own country. haha! well done.

T-A-K-U-T.

tu lah perkataan yang sentiasa terngiang ngiang di kepala ini.

can i do it? boleh aku jadi secemerlang yang aku impikan?

i have to work hard. dunia ini belum habis ku jejaki.
jika ada umur yang panjang,
London, Berlin, New York, Victoria - sort of city yang aku bakal jejaki.

tapi bila?

bila sampai masa.

persoalan yang aku belom tentu temui. to fulfill a high dream.

but i will, someday.

work hard, stop being lazy.

the third night

I'm OK. a bit confused.

now, it's time to move on!

next step to the bridge.
i will walk alone, ignore all guy because i don't need them.

and this song gave me strength! LET IT GO, and ROOOOARRR!!!

Ujian Allah swt

i have been soooooo fret out lately. then, i hangout with some friend, texting them, ask their experience, then i realize, im not the only one being mad because of jobless. not everyone has born to be rich. alhamdulilah, Allah gave me a mind' lately. and i decide to further my study in future. in sha Allah, i will enhance my ability.

dear vacation, I NEED YOU!
planning to go somewhere far from here. :)

depression

stupid, bodoh, bodoh, bodoh..

what I had learn for many years is like stupidity.

hell what at last i don't even know what I'm doing.

people like to judge, argue and rule.

I should bury myself.

I'm losing hope.
I'm moron.
I'm stupid.

new enviroment

should I further my study?

i don't want to do it for real. honest. getting lost again!
kenapa lah dulu aku tak belajar rajin2 supaya aku tak jd mcm sekarang ni?
kalau spm ritu dpt 9A msty ramai orang sponsor nak study mana, meh2 keje kat company aku.
like hell.

tak kan nak kembali ke unimas? again? nak stuck kat sane?
aku suke lagi buat research. coursework pon not bad. but i do love doing research. masalahnya dekat unimas pulak. tak nak stuck sane, tak nak stuck sane!
aduh. gi mana ni dong? mlm ni, again, insomnia.
kalau uitm, kene ulang alik. bila lah aku nk kurangkan perbelanjaan parent aku ni?
tlg lah, be a designer is tough.