Throwback

Teringat zaman FYP dulu. ahhhhh! patutkah masuk blog?

usaha keras mcm batu.

sokey, 

still ia kenangan masa lampau supaya dimasa akan datang tidak akan mengulangi kekalahan ketika ini.

and also tak faham knp pic ala-ala cheta ni boleh masuk here?

haha!

demm.. tp kerusi ni aku tetap suke.

membe punye furniture. :)

malas strike!

Malas malas malas.

keinginan buat research, baca buku, and even menaip pon malas.

cuaca kat luar pon mcm winter jugak. oh puhlease since when malaysia ade winter?

this year, probably, terlepas aku nak merasa winter. sokey, another next year hade. haha!

life utk past 6 month ni mmg horrible. erhh! tak nk repeat balik! teruknye.. masa byk gile terbuang. tp everytime terpikir mende mcm ni, esok buat balik. pagi bgn lewat. lunch, tgk tv, online, main game, sembang sepatah dua gan parent, then here i am. still zero. keje byk. but tangguh2.. aduhaimakaihhhh..

4 Dec:
- Dapatkan usahawan yang nk buat anyaman.
- Prepare for proposal
- Baca buku tambahkan ilmu.

ahhh! i just dont know how to start. (>.<")
doakan dipermudahkan urusan, rezeki dan ehhhmmm jodoh jugak. haha!
ok bai.

mood: sleepy. grrrr!!! mengantok pls go away.

p/s: i love you, Mr. Y.

everything happen for a reason.

im afraid to get married! omaigod! ahhh.. pembuka bicara sangat cliche. tukar - tukar..

i want to be somebody who get a reason for live. hehe.
what that's mean?
dude.. it mean, err.. wait, my mind still figure out what meaning of the question...
loading...

what is the best thing i really want in my life?
still loading..

who i really want to be my love life?
Yazid.

im so tired to be in love again.
enough say.
berdoa, itu lah kunci kebahagian sebenar.

study lah study!
bila nak jadi kaya raya ni?

haha,

hidup tak perlu harapkan duit mama dan bapak.

duit duit duit.
nak hidup kene duit.
tak ade duit mati.
mati ape?
mati akal?
mati jasad?
mati minda?

apa beza minda dan akal?

Allah tuhanku, Muhammad persuruhMu.

kepadaNya ku beriman.

in sha Allah. sampai masa, Allah tetapkan.

permudahkanlah.

moving forward

keep ponder, dapat ke aku study abroad nanti? aduh. ex-lect boleh plak mention aritu suh belajar kat korea. eh ehhh.. korea lagi? nk try g UK lah. oi besauuu nye cite2 aku ni. in sha Allah dapat aku nanti. cite-cite nk jadik kaya. mmg lah skrg bole dapat mcm2 tp semua through my dad and mama. ape bende usaha tak de. tk nk lah smpi bile nk harap kat dwg. aduh.. bole ni sha, bole ni.. cuba lagi. usaha lagi. kalau gv up sekali pon, teruskan usaha. byk lagi cara nk dapatkan cite-cite menjadi kenyataan. hihi.. >.<

Hey, I am in love.

a few weeks ago, i said how im afraid to fall again.

after i done my solat istikarah, alhamdulilah i follow my heart and i am in love again.

alhamdulilah for now, my love life going up! i shouldn't feel worried to fall again. i have a new boyfriend! yeeeayyy! ok, my plan now is keep moving forward. study hard. be what i want to be. i want to study abroad. i want to be a researcher. i want to be a enthusiastic person. i want and i have to be.

and now i have a few things i start to falling.

i love my family, i love my boyfriend, i love my friend.
i love iphone 5s, i love macbook pro, i love travelling, i love aaargghhh! i got so many thing i want in my life.
omaigod, omaigod, omaiiiigooooddddd.
i have to work hard.
don't give up. don't forget to pray.
just live your life.

>.<
keep blessing.

masih

masih tak dapat nk melepaskan kenangan lalu?

masya Allah. tolong la hambamu ini. 'nak tikar sembahyang, sila doa di sini'

hhihi.. in sha Allah, nisya kuatkan smngt kamu.

u can do it. in sha Allah, ini mungkin terbaik utk kamu.

it's just a song, don't keep imagine your feeling for now. i know it's hurt.

but, anything can cure. just be patient, move forward and feel freedom.

amin..

he is the best thing? did he?

hari ni aku private kan acc blog aku supaya aku sorang je boleh baca dan mngarut swg2.. ahha!

today i made a mistake. huge mistake i guess.

i'm start to falling in love with someone. i know i shouldn't do it.
but my heart pounds everything he text me.
he lots of caring. supportive. happiness.
but i'm just afraid to fall again.
afraid to lose somebody.
i should be strong.

sigh* ponder*

i shouldn't fall in love. i shouldn't fall in love. i shouldn't fall in love.

keep my dream to study abroad. i don't think i can make it. T.T

i know someday i will leave him. just like a man before.

easily for me to falling in love right?
how i miss my past. but i have to let it go. throw away that memories.
because i don't want my past. i want my future.

sometimes parent talk about marriage, i feel like, ouuuwii! i like to heard that.

unfortunately, im afraid of that thing.
everybody keep saying that marriage is full of happiness.
but the one thing i keep thinking is responsible.
why?
i hate this feeling, really hate this feeling.
please, dear love, please go away for a while.
i promise to you, you can come back after i ready to face it, again.

i can't keep my promise to love you forever.

how to do it? how to deal with it?

life full of sadness.

back to religion, keep pray to Allah, my Lord.
well, Alhamdulilah thanks Allah for giving me this love feeling i really appreciate it.

love is so complicated.

i don't want to hurt anybody heart anymore.