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aduh.. pening pk.. tak de duit tak leh hidup.. THIS IS REALITY!

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this is breaking news. about MH370. my thought keep saying, how many time i've been survive from any accident related to airplane? 3 years, ulang alik KL-Kuching, then my flight to KL-Korea, KL-Mecca. it not much, compared with others, but still i risk my life on air. hmm.. ya Allah, permudahkan lah semuanya. Kau memberi ku peluang utk ku bertaubat. tapi aku kerap gagal memegang janji ku. i know, soon, You will take my soul. matikan lah aku dalam keadaan yang beriman ya Allah. T.T 

life is not promises. it all depends on You. 

alfatihah.

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I got an email

email from my supervisor. aahhhh... there is meeting with director on next monday. and i need to propose a slide to present my tittle in front of the director. and my feeling going miserable, at the same time being excited. lama tak present and meet someone important. hihi. hope everything going well. hope the director will have something to discuss. im scared, if i will do something not good. they will blame me. yes, im the one who will get blame. shame on me. but still, dont lose hope. do the best. stop trying. make as good as u can. i know im good. huhu.. peace out-

penat2 berfikir..

Alhamdulilah dapat perkabaran gembira dikala hati tgh gundah gedala. hahaha!

haih.. nmpoknye, Allah dah makbulkan doa aku. alhamdulilah. diberinye kesedihan dan kemudiannya Dia hadiahkan kegembiraan. aku kenal erti syukur. alhamdulilah. i found my path.

naluri hati

kenapa lah hidup aku ni malang sangat? kenapa tuhan susah sgt nak bagi jalan kat aku? aku dah bosan belajar. dok uma tk buat ape. nak suh study otak aku dah tak boleh masuk pape dah. stress betui lah. malas sgt ke aku ni? aku just tak tahu nak buat ape. aku just nk life normal2 je. mmg lah nk jd org kaya. tp tu dulu. skrg ni rasa, nk jd normal pon susah. inikan nk jadi org kaya. sy mksdkan kat sni org kaya ni mean org berjaya dr segi kewangan. entah lah. start dah meroyan balik ni. jalan aku salah ke? kenapa time2 mcm ni tuhan nk bg feeling nk kawen tu kuat sgt? dah bagi aku feeling nk kawen pastu tak bg jalan yg sepatutnye. 

kalau org baca mmg semua akan kutuk. ptt aku perlu berusaha. tp org lain, faham ke? 

menghitung hari. membazir masa. 

impian bukan punah cuma hilang. 

face the reality. 

luahan hati yang belum tentu semua org faham.

kenapa aku kian jatuh?

another day, just another day.

hari yang semakin membosankan. nak membaca sikit bukan main malas lagi. HAHA! selalu kene tegur gan supervisor, how long have u read? i need to change! kene cari tempat yg sesuai tuk reading memandangkan skrg musim panas melampau. huhu. i miss library, i miss cais. hmm..

kereta mimpi

or dream car. nowadays, i don't have any feeling to own any dream car since i don't even have one! like, seriously? but why? ye lah kan, sejak aku rasa kereta bukan lagi kehendak aku. sekadar memakai saga FLX silver aku yg acap kali rosak. huhu. ganas ke aku bawak? 2 tahun ok je kat Kuching. ok now aku nak salah kan sape? hahahah! well, tah lah. dah kata machine, surely lah rosak tu of cos will occur. hmm.. now i keep looking and searching at house. to have and own a dream house. dream house aku skrg terbahagi kepada dua. which satu utk aku duduk for a few, i mean ye lah lepas kahwin so sure nk stay kat any apartment. right? rumah skrg mahal. susah nk memenuhi keinginan sendiri. sekadar syukur je gan ape yg ade. then, perhaps if ade rezeki boleh lah move on to another bigger house, or land house. itu pon kalau aku ni gaji in sha Allah besar lah. am I right? nowdays, 26, aku dah mule rasa goyah. menangani tekanan hidup. nak tak nk kene tempuh juga. tak kan nk depends on parent? oh no no.. tak boleh tak boleh. mmg lah orang ckp perempuan ape ade hal? suami kan ade. but for me, i have my own dream career. to be an intelligent and successful women in researching area, in sha Allah. :) well, that it for now. 

take care, love.