feeling bless*

Back to Saturday, December 29, 2012. there i wrote: i don't want my life to be sad ending..in sha Allah. i'm currently in process to further my study in UPM. syukur sangat-sangat. Allah perkenankan doaku. Alhamdulilah, a day before I went to Jakarta, i got a called from my friend which is my ex supervisor while im doing my final diploma project in usm. he offered me a master research in upm. again, master research! that what i aim for. I will do my best. ya Allah, it is like a miracle. because, i never thought i can get any chance after i let go two offers from unimas and uitm. it all sudden. berkat solat istikarah probably. put all trust in Allah, and He will reward you the best. this is my chance, not the only chance, but it's really big chance for me. anything happen for a reason. 

Life needs changing.

I pray to Allah, to get a husband. and I hope He will grant it.

haha! then i wrote here. yurp, that what i need the most.

no, no. i still need knowledge. that what i need the most.

sumpah demi bulan, sumpah demi bintang, semua jadi saksi cintaaaaaa....
rindunya nak jatuh cinta lagi sekali. :)

The future belongs to those who prepared it today.

I wish my future, dunia akhirat, will be shine. in sha Allah.

Jujur

N.Y cinta
I love this movie so much! but, i hate the ending. aih? mcm tu je?
then dgn si johan yg like a pfffttthh! i hate him. ape lah.. nonsense.
but the best part, when Mia in NY. how she falling in love with Seth.
i love Seth, but he such a loser. but, in the end, he try to move on and change his faith after falling in love with Mia. lg seronok kalau die boleh tnjk Seth tu berjaya. he js fly from NY to Msia js to explain to mia about sarah. that's it? cinta sakan kau. haha. well, that probably the best part. try to change  ur self, for your love one. how lovely. kita bukan bercinta cuma hanya utk nafsu. tp kalau someone tu boleh buat kite berubah utk lebih baik, itu adalah yg terbaik sbnrnye.

i try this b4. to change my ex attitude. unfortunately, still he going down. so, the best thing is to let him go.

well, i love me. now and forever.
this movie makes me want to further my study in New York. no just NY, but i want to explore west side. in sha Allah. i will work hard to achieve my dream! :)

ini lah kehidupan

kehidupan yang aku mahukan? for real?

dah lah bahasa inggeris berterabur. dapat pula supervisor not from my own country. haha! well done.

T-A-K-U-T.

tu lah perkataan yang sentiasa terngiang ngiang di kepala ini.

can i do it? boleh aku jadi secemerlang yang aku impikan?

i have to work hard. dunia ini belum habis ku jejaki.
jika ada umur yang panjang,
London, Berlin, New York, Victoria - sort of city yang aku bakal jejaki.

tapi bila?

bila sampai masa.

persoalan yang aku belom tentu temui. to fulfill a high dream.

but i will, someday.

work hard, stop being lazy.

the third night

I'm OK. a bit confused.

now, it's time to move on!

next step to the bridge.
i will walk alone, ignore all guy because i don't need them.

and this song gave me strength! LET IT GO, and ROOOOARRR!!!

Ujian Allah swt

i have been soooooo fret out lately. then, i hangout with some friend, texting them, ask their experience, then i realize, im not the only one being mad because of jobless. not everyone has born to be rich. alhamdulilah, Allah gave me a mind' lately. and i decide to further my study in future. in sha Allah, i will enhance my ability.

dear vacation, I NEED YOU!
planning to go somewhere far from here. :)

depression

stupid, bodoh, bodoh, bodoh..

what I had learn for many years is like stupidity.

hell what at last i don't even know what I'm doing.

people like to judge, argue and rule.

I should bury myself.